My Serendipity!

"Do you ever get that feeling where you don't wanna talk to anybody? You don't wanna smile and you don't want to fake being happy. But at the same time you don't know exactly what's wrong either. There isn't a way to explain it to someone who doesn't already understand. If you could want anything in the world it would be to be alone. People have stopped being comforting and being alone never was. At least when you're alone no one will constantly ask you what is wrong and there isn't anyone who won't take 'I don't know' for an answer. You feel the way you do just because you do. You hope the feeling will pass soon and that you will be able to be yourself again, but until then all u can do is wait"

I'm told by my friends that I'm loved, that I make a difference in their lives and that they actually care. I believe every word they say put all my faith & trust in them, & love them as much as my heart can give plus more. I'd die for them if it came down to it. But it's weird, because I've done stupid things & tried to do some that were even more stupid. I guess when the going gets tough & there's a little confusion between some friends I feel I'm alone, & that's when I do stupid things. My friends know what I'm talking about, because they're the ones that pull me out of these situations time & again. I just want to say thank you, because as a matter of fact, they may not know it, but, well...once or twice they've saved my life. Yeah that's what I mean by being stupid. They all say I'd never, but I would. It just seems that friends are so important in my life. If I lost one, or I got in a fight with one, or ...