F.R.I.E.N.D.S.
It was yesterday that I realised just how many backstabbing fools exist on this earth. But then on greater introspection and deep thinking I realised that maybe we are greater fools for allowing them to backstab us. Some of us have been very lucky to have really great friends who will stand by us come whatever may but there are persons who donot have a single friend to call their own. The social networking sites profiles show a huge friend list of 400 - 500 people. The other day i was browsing Orkut when I saw a profile having 996 friends and she had to create another profile in order to add more friends. The Question here is that how many of these friends are truly her friends.
I am both lucky and unlucky. Lucky coz whatever be the number of friends I have I know that atleast i have a handful of true friends who will be there not only as my friends but also fulfill all the voids in my life that destiny has created. But am also unlucky coz i realised that out of those handful of friends was a traitor. A traitor who confessed to her boyfriend that she was using me in order to get her things done. A traitor who told me something and bitched about me behind my back to her other friends. A traitor who went to the extent of abusing my family in front of her other friends. A traitor who did certain things to be happy at the cost of others' happiness. A traitor who lost all her purity by doing certain things unacceptable in her family and society at large. A traitor who thinks that she can rule the world with her lies. A traitor who says something and does exactly the opposite. A traitor who can lie about everything (even her parents). A traitor who can put her loved ones into a dilemma by blackmailing them or simply shouting at them. A traitor who can hurt her loved ones just for her own reasons. A traitor who is a scheming three timer. A traitor who cannot accept her mistakes. A traitor who puts her blame on the attitude and ego of others without realising that its not their ego but their self respect.
All these and more qualities in this "friend" of mine. Maybe i realised all this a long time ago but my eyes were truely opened yesterday. I know I shouldn't bother much about whats happening in her personal love life... But what do i do if her boyfriend happens to be a close friend of mine and who tells me about all these things and expects an answer from me. I am not able to decide what is right and what is wrong. I know my Friend is wrong and that her boyfriend is hurt but am i not equally hurt? Is it right to take decisions on a hurt and biased mind? Is it ok to tell them to sort it on their own and count me out of this? Is it justified if i withdraw myself?
These are the questions i cant answer at all. The dictionary today has no word as FRIEND. It is just a symbol of pride to maintain a huge friend list. I personally have lost trust on my friends. I have played the agony aunt enough, have listened to friends' problems and consoled them enough, have been hurt enough. My few close friends(the still true ones) say that its coz of my nature that i get involved. But i have realised that all this is making my life complicated. And why should i complicate my life thinking about and helping those people aho are just using me.
So after thinking about this matter a lot i have finally decided to let it go. Now my life will be just my own and those handful of friends who actually care for me will remain close to me till they dont go ahead and back stab me. I will be happier to have just 1 friend who really cares for me and who will wholeheartedly support me rather than having 200 friends who dont mean anything to me. Also i will be happier if i lead my own life and stop expecting things and deeds from others but my parents and the one special person with whom i will have a future to spend. I think thats what is needed in today's world. One will have to face the world with practicality by keeping his/her emotions at home. Kudos to this world where the word FRIEND is now synonymous with bitching, ditching and back biting. The most positive word at one point of a time is now the most negative word in aleast my, if not others', life !!!
I am both lucky and unlucky. Lucky coz whatever be the number of friends I have I know that atleast i have a handful of true friends who will be there not only as my friends but also fulfill all the voids in my life that destiny has created. But am also unlucky coz i realised that out of those handful of friends was a traitor. A traitor who confessed to her boyfriend that she was using me in order to get her things done. A traitor who told me something and bitched about me behind my back to her other friends. A traitor who went to the extent of abusing my family in front of her other friends. A traitor who did certain things to be happy at the cost of others' happiness. A traitor who lost all her purity by doing certain things unacceptable in her family and society at large. A traitor who thinks that she can rule the world with her lies. A traitor who says something and does exactly the opposite. A traitor who can lie about everything (even her parents). A traitor who can put her loved ones into a dilemma by blackmailing them or simply shouting at them. A traitor who can hurt her loved ones just for her own reasons. A traitor who is a scheming three timer. A traitor who cannot accept her mistakes. A traitor who puts her blame on the attitude and ego of others without realising that its not their ego but their self respect.
All these and more qualities in this "friend" of mine. Maybe i realised all this a long time ago but my eyes were truely opened yesterday. I know I shouldn't bother much about whats happening in her personal love life... But what do i do if her boyfriend happens to be a close friend of mine and who tells me about all these things and expects an answer from me. I am not able to decide what is right and what is wrong. I know my Friend is wrong and that her boyfriend is hurt but am i not equally hurt? Is it right to take decisions on a hurt and biased mind? Is it ok to tell them to sort it on their own and count me out of this? Is it justified if i withdraw myself?
These are the questions i cant answer at all. The dictionary today has no word as FRIEND. It is just a symbol of pride to maintain a huge friend list. I personally have lost trust on my friends. I have played the agony aunt enough, have listened to friends' problems and consoled them enough, have been hurt enough. My few close friends(the still true ones) say that its coz of my nature that i get involved. But i have realised that all this is making my life complicated. And why should i complicate my life thinking about and helping those people aho are just using me.
So after thinking about this matter a lot i have finally decided to let it go. Now my life will be just my own and those handful of friends who actually care for me will remain close to me till they dont go ahead and back stab me. I will be happier to have just 1 friend who really cares for me and who will wholeheartedly support me rather than having 200 friends who dont mean anything to me. Also i will be happier if i lead my own life and stop expecting things and deeds from others but my parents and the one special person with whom i will have a future to spend. I think thats what is needed in today's world. One will have to face the world with practicality by keeping his/her emotions at home. Kudos to this world where the word FRIEND is now synonymous with bitching, ditching and back biting. The most positive word at one point of a time is now the most negative word in aleast my, if not others', life !!!
Comments
bt ths FRIENDS thng is also good as far as writing is taken bt dont give ppl not-deserved importance n mk thngs hard for urself...maybe blogs r a way 2show ur happines, sadness, depression, hatred, n a lot more feelings...bt if ppl dnt respect u thn dnt gv thm any respect, attention or importnce...thy r nt worth it..thr r many more ppl in ths world who truly care for u n love u...anyways, ull knw wat i mean..it must have been raining outside whn u posted 1poem...think...bye...tc